Don't Blink

The world is big and filled with twists and turns and if you blink you'll miss a moment. I blinked recently, in fact i did more than blink, i closed my eyes. And before i knew it, everything changed. What i thought was right was wrong, my vision was shattered and my ability to make rational decisions were filled with emotional responses.

Eyes wide shut hoping that the vision that once was would come back, to see things that i once saw, to believe in things i once believed in.

Our lives happen in moments, each moment adds to an experience. No one knows how to react to each moment and we don't know the right or wrong answer. That's where hindsight is a bitch. It's our escape clause to explain why things didn't work. We beat ourselves up over the road less travelled. We sometimes make decisions on those moments thinking its the best for us where in reality if we had the foresight, we may have seen that it wasn't the right decision. We blink then we use hindsight as the cause.

We never lose our fear of the demons under our beds or in the closet. We grow out of the belief that the demons are the three headed monsters or evil monkeys, but the demons are still there. They change everytime we blink, they adjust to our fears when we close our eyes. The same reason why kids don't like to sleep out of fear of the demons is the same reason we as adults don't like to blink. Once the eyes shut, our fears appear and the demons become what we are running from.

I've made a lot of mistakes and a few regrets in my life. But my biggest regret is blinking and not fighting my fears. Not taking the right path over the best one. The best decisions are a short term win that satisfies an immediate fear but never conquers it, the right decisions are sometimes painful ones to make but are undeniable in its expected outcome. We never make the right decisions with our eyes closed.

The world is big and vast and filled with twists and turns and if you blink you'll miss a moment. I blinked yesterday and now I have to live with those demons. Time will pass and I'll blink again and one day i'll overcome those demons, but I'll have to do it with my eyes open.